"i'm a perfectionist, so i'm never satisfied with myself.  i've always been psychotic about that kind of stuff--in a good way.  i'm very disciplined.  like the food and the whole thing, i'm always looking to "how can i eventually just turn into a ball of light and fly off the planet?".  until that happens and God basically pull the blinds back, i will not be satisfied... if i found out that if i ate pine nuts for the next month i could see God, i'd be eating pine nuts."